Yesterday and yesterday's tomorrow.

Written on 02/03/10

I think I'm encountering severe stress and OCD or something.

It's the second time I "think" that I forgot to bring my Science exercise book when the whole time it was right there, in my bag.

It really scares me. My memory is getting worse.

I really need extra sleep and I should really get all my work done. And I still have to study, and sometimes I find that I slack a lot and after I take a huge nap I'm still freaking tired. What the hell do I do?

Sigh, I'd better get back to more work. I'm so tired, my hair is wet, I'm hardly conscious of what I'm really doing, I've got a pile of homework to struggle with and I need to study for the exams. One more day left.. Am I really doomed to succumb in misery due to my failure to memorize anything at all?

I just wish I could stop time for a moment and sleep as long as I want, and then wake up, start the clock again and ready to usher into the hectic high school life once more.

But right now?

I want to sleep.

T_T

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Okay. That was yesterday.

My first term starts tomorrow. What am I still doing online?

Every time I look at Pui Ee or I-Xin studying with intense eyes and focused minds, I look at myself and wonder..

WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?!

I guess I'm not going to put my hopes so high for this exam.. If I do, my heart will shatter into a million pieces..

It sounds drastic, but you have no idea what my parents expect from me. If I drop, a lecture will follow through and I will feel even worse about myself.

I'm already so bad, what do I do?

And the NILAM issue isn't even solved yet.. God, please, please, please make Puan Suzana mark my NILAM so I get it back tomorrow.. Please..

I have to go sleep. Wish me luck.

P.S.:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHI CHAI & CHIEN YI :DD